Had a lovely but tiring day today visiting another friend and her 2 kids. I've not seen them for absolutely ages as they don't come into London very often these days, and so the only way I get to see them is to go to them. I don't mind going to the effort of travelling to see my friends as I know it's appreciated, and I did promise myself that I'd try to make more of an effort to keep in touch with people.
It was a bit overcast but it managed to stay dry this afternoon, which was a good thing as we ended up going to the park and playing on the swings and the climbing frames. I had such a good time, it felt like being a kid again. I love going on the swings, trying to swing as high as I can and feel like I'm flying, forgetting all about any worries or stresses.
Today really reinforced for me that I do want a family. I know that it's not all fun and games and going to the park and playing, but I want it so much. So I have to do something about it... Get out there and meet new men who might be The One. I have to stop thinking about Mr Special and obsessing over him because he's not giving me what I want. No matter how much I want things to be different, I can't change that... No matter how perfect he seems in my head, he really isn't, otherwise he'd still be in this country, with me, making a commitment to me.
Life is short... I can't keep pining over this guy because somewhere out there, is the guy for me.
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