The One

Do you believe in The One?

I was talking to another friend this evening who is going through a rough patch with her boyfriend. Last week it seemed like I was surrounded by happy couples, people getting together or engaged or moving in with each other... this week it's break up city! We had a really good chat though, and I hope it helped her, but it really got me thinking about things.

Am I too unrealistic when it comes to affairs of the heart? Do I expect too much? I know that it's not always going to be hearts and flowers but I think that couples have to keep that spark going. No matter what other stuff is going on in your life, I believe you should always make time for your partner.

I want it all. I want the fairytale ending. I want Prince Charming to come along and sweep me off my feet and tell me that I'm the most important thing in his life. I want to be told that I'm loved and cared for. I want him to show me affection, give me cuddles and hold my hand, make me feel protected. I want him to want to be with me, to want to make me happy, not because he feels like he has to, but because he wants to.

When I'm with someone, I love doing all those little things that help to keep the spark going, cute messages, unexpected treats, and these can be small and seemingly insignificant things, they don't have to be flashy and expensive. I remember I once got an ex a bag of his favourite sweets when we were going out somewhere, it didn't cost me much in terms of money as it was only a couple of quid, but in terms of time and effort I had to trek all the way into Chinatown to buy them, but I did it because I knew he'd appreciate the gesture.

I don't believe that there is only one person out there for each of us, but I do think that at different times in our lives we will have different Ones. My first love, H, I really thought was The One. And he was at the time. Not anymore though. Right now, I feel like it is Mr Special but that's not to say that he is the guy I'll end up with.

But I do want someone who will be there for me, put me as a priority and make me feel important. I want to be in a loving relationship that is everlasting because we want to be together, and not through any sense of duty or obligation or settling for second best. I'd rather stay single than be in a relationship for the wrong reasons. Being single is lonely, but not as lonely as being in a loveless relationship.

I hope I find my One soon... I miss saying I love you to someone. I miss waking up next to someone and breathing in their scent and snuggling against them for a few minutes before having to get up. I miss having someone that I can talk to about anything and everything. Am I asking for too much? Or do I just have misguided notions of love from movies and romantic novels???