Valentine's Day

Doesn't time fly when you're having fun? It doesn't really feel like it's been a year since the previous Valentine's Day. I remember this time last year when I was feeling stupidly excited at the prospect of actually spending Valentine's Day as part of a couple. Last year, I went to the effort of buying a card and a thoughtful gift, as well as booking tickets for a show for us to go to. He bought me some chocolates, not a very original choice but a lovely gesture. This year I am very much single and not really looking forward to Friday.

Even this week, in the lead up to the most, supposedly, romantic day of the year, I've been surrounded by red hearts and cards and suggestions of what to buy for your loved one. Of course, I would do some of these things if I had a partner, but I wouldn't necessarily just do them for this day. I like to buy surprise gifts and write cards throughout the year, not just one day. Also, I don't believe that it has to cost a lot of money - something handmade or created by my partner would mean a thousand times more to me than something bought in the shops. And ultimately, I am looking for love, not presents or material things that I can buy for myself or save up for.

I think one of the things that I have missed most while being single, is physical closeness and intimacy. I'm not just talking about sex, but rather the cuddles and hugs, the kisses, the hand holding, brushing the hair back off my face, stroking my back, that sort of thing. I miss being with someone. Even when I am surrounded by all my family and friends there is still an overwhelming sense of loneliness.

Here's hoping for a lovely day for everyone, no matter where you are, or who you're with.
Much love xx